Just a note here to say that DMT passes through the body super fast, big or small dose, it's metabolized in minutes unlike other psychedelics. 10 minutes sounds normal for both big and small doses.
Short answer: Nope! Statistically, not good to do psychedelics if you're predisposed to psychosis.
Long answer:
I've done a lot of work here. There's a meta-skill that I've spent a lot of time on--basically the ability to step back from the current situation and evaluate my state of mind. And if I feel myself drifting into a manic headspace, I have a ton of grounding mechanisms at my disposal.
It's been ~7 years since I had any symptoms resembling mania, and I've slowly reacquainted myself with various psychedelics and other contraindicated practices. I've been *very* careful while doing so, and am still taking things slowly--low doses, with lots of time between.
Famous last words, but I honestly think I'm *less* at risk of full-blown psychosis than your average person at this point, because I've seen the mechanisms of psychosis up close, and I understand what it feels like to be drawn into that headspace. I've learned how to put down ideas that feel alluring, but are leading me in the wrong direction.
So it's a calculated risk. I wouldn't necessarily encourage someone else to follow my path here, but I feel good about my choices.
Always appreciate suggestions! But I'm not quite sure what you're getting at--are you hoping I'd write more on the subject? Or thinking that I'd get something out of studying it personally?
Christian Orthodoxy also has priests. And they are quite critical to the whole affair.
But unlike Roman Catholicism, Orthodoxy explicitly acknowledges that everything in the world has an element of the Divine to it. And part of the point of being human is to assist in sanctifying it.
To that end we are to pursue "theosis," which is union with God, often via practices demanding no priestly mediation. The RCs have "divination," but that's on the back burner. For the Orthodox theosis is the beating heart of the whole matter.
Given what's in that footnote, might be right up your alley.
I mention it as I'm plowing some of the same metaphorical furrows as you, and have been feeling a pull in that direction.
Thanks for the pointers! I've struggled a bit with finding a flavor of Christianity that feels right, though I occasionally attend UCC services. I think the word "Jesus" still has a lot of unfortunate baggage for me. Will definitely take a look at Orthodoxy though!
Just a note here to say that DMT passes through the body super fast, big or small dose, it's metabolized in minutes unlike other psychedelics. 10 minutes sounds normal for both big and small doses.
You've written that you had psychosis before. Is it really a good idea to experiment with psychedelics this strong ?
Short answer: Nope! Statistically, not good to do psychedelics if you're predisposed to psychosis.
Long answer:
I've done a lot of work here. There's a meta-skill that I've spent a lot of time on--basically the ability to step back from the current situation and evaluate my state of mind. And if I feel myself drifting into a manic headspace, I have a ton of grounding mechanisms at my disposal.
It's been ~7 years since I had any symptoms resembling mania, and I've slowly reacquainted myself with various psychedelics and other contraindicated practices. I've been *very* careful while doing so, and am still taking things slowly--low doses, with lots of time between.
Famous last words, but I honestly think I'm *less* at risk of full-blown psychosis than your average person at this point, because I've seen the mechanisms of psychosis up close, and I understand what it feels like to be drawn into that headspace. I've learned how to put down ideas that feel alluring, but are leading me in the wrong direction.
So it's a calculated risk. I wouldn't necessarily encourage someone else to follow my path here, but I feel good about my choices.
Maybe the following sounds like a good idea, maybe not. If the latter, obvs, ignore. You didn't ask for suggestions.
But per footnote 1, may I suggest more directed noodling with Christian Orthodoxy?
Always appreciate suggestions! But I'm not quite sure what you're getting at--are you hoping I'd write more on the subject? Or thinking that I'd get something out of studying it personally?
Either! But I was mostly thinking the latter.
Christian Orthodoxy also has priests. And they are quite critical to the whole affair.
But unlike Roman Catholicism, Orthodoxy explicitly acknowledges that everything in the world has an element of the Divine to it. And part of the point of being human is to assist in sanctifying it.
To that end we are to pursue "theosis," which is union with God, often via practices demanding no priestly mediation. The RCs have "divination," but that's on the back burner. For the Orthodox theosis is the beating heart of the whole matter.
Given what's in that footnote, might be right up your alley.
I mention it as I'm plowing some of the same metaphorical furrows as you, and have been feeling a pull in that direction.
Thanks for the pointers! I've struggled a bit with finding a flavor of Christianity that feels right, though I occasionally attend UCC services. I think the word "Jesus" still has a lot of unfortunate baggage for me. Will definitely take a look at Orthodoxy though!
Given some of the metaphysical perambulations you've travelled, the book "Christ the Eternal Tao" might be of interest.
Written by the protege of a very well-known Orthodox mystic. A fella that was very credentialed, so to speak. Not a work of facile ecumenicism.
https://www.holycross.org/products/christ-the-eternal-tao